what do you want me to do noor? just sit back and enjoy when you decide my life? when you rotate my life upside down? when you decide who my friends are? when you decide how long i should talk to them?

i have a mother and a father who doesn't give me any respect nor freedom and there you are deciding my life for me? im not married to you yet? i can live my life! im not a baby! im a grown up. nineteen years old and i have had enough experiences to decide the best for me! 

i dont know what to do okay! i wanna go! i wanna leave everything behind and start a new life! but thats the last thing i can do! i wanna go away from you! but i know i cant! my mind tells me to break up with you! but my heart wont let me! im so in love with you that whatever you do or say to me im ready to accept it. im a failure i know! i know i cant make you happy ok?! but then again, if so, why are you still with me? why cant you leave me? and do us both a favour? please noor! go away! let me live in peace! no.. DONT! I DONT WANT YOU TO GO AWAY! ARGHH!! SOMEBODY KILL ME!