i just emailed my CV to Joe Moesker of Shangrilla to apply for the post of HR's secretary. this is going to be my second job application. i just wish i dont have to talk about the first one! my boyfriend who works in wataniya sent my CV to the head of wataniya sales department. PJ something, i think? anyway, the guy guaranteed a job for me and then i was called for an interview about 3 weeks ago. it was my first interview and im sure it would be tradition to be nervous. i was practically swooning. i dont know the meaning of that word but i think that would be the best definition for how i felt that day.

so anyway, a few days after the interview, i found out that the job which i was interviewed for required a boy! and not a girl. but i still had hope -somewhat! there probably would have been lesser boys interviewed than girls! but then! another few days later, i found out that i was the only GIRL interviewed with six boys! oh, how i felt!! yet, i had hope because a co-worker and ex.bestfriend told me that i might still get it because i was the only one who had good A level results! pfft! right! they wanted a guy and they chose one as well! it's so unfair! i mean, come on! if they wanted a guy in the first place why did they even bother to interview me! >< and waste my 'nervous' energy! sure i cried that day, but i told no one! i cried enough and made a brave 'i dont care' look on my face when i told mom about it. and then dad got mad at me. as if it was my fault. you could even expect some sympathy from your own mother, but i think i wish too much. i did expect my boyfriend's sympathy as well. but i didnt let him feel that i was upset. i dont know why but i just hate it when people show sympathy towards me. just a lil is fine i guess.